1st date after the break up, still thinking of Bruce A LOT

Higlight about the date:

1. That guy was referred by one of my best fds bf, he's American, fr Minneapolis, kinda a typical type of attractive guy, is an i-banker, earns a lot!!! Looks not bad, smart, humorous, etc. But I attended that just to kill time, I m totally not ready to start a new relationship yet, I ve been comparing him with Bruce for the whole time in my mind, still think Bruce is A LOT better. 

2. Obviously, that guy likes me, he texted me right after I left, texted me today too and invited me for a dinner this wed.. I didnt say no, cos I ve too much time, it's GREAT to get someone to hang out with me!

3. Last nite I went back home at like 1am, then kinda tipsy & fell to sleep...but cos I didnt remove my makeup yet..so couldnt sleep well & I woke up at 4am..then tried to sleep but couldnt...when I really fall to sleep, I think it's like 7am! The WORST nite..keep on thinking about Bruce..felt sad....but I dont worry, I know things will improve soon. =)

Talked to bruce's bro

feel a lot better after talking to him! =)

Feel sad again today

Sigh...I just cried again.. was talking to a fd of mine and she kept on asking me why I broke up with Bruce! I was so pissed she asked again! I said I dont wanna talk about anything about that! ><

Really dont know why I feel sad again tonite for no reason.....and I MISS HIM A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!! THx god that I dont have intention to call or email him again now since I doubt if he still cares about me...what's the pt of calling him when he has nth wanna tell me? Maybe he got over me already, so why should I bother?....

About Burning Man...i have 2nd thought again, maybe I can still go? I think if 3 months later, I almost get over him already, then I go, if not, then dont..

for now, I dont need to tell him anything and again...I m not sure if he cares.

will be sleeping soon.

Ha, because I think I caught a cold, been sneezing for the whole nite! >< aiya, but I need to work out tmr...so hope to be recovered asap tmr! =)

Another day

Very happy today, I ve done lots of meaningful things e.g. sort out the files on my laptop, installed a language learning softeware (but failed will try tmr), applied some jobs ( i quit my job btw).

But.. >< still dont feel sleepy until 4am! I will make myself going to bed earlier bit by bit!

btw, so proud of myself, I didnt contact Bruce for totally a week already!!!!!!!!!! once I stop contacting him for a month, I will hold a celebration party with Gloria & nikki! :)

The breakup song that I listen to every day

By listening to this, I feel better and can sleep better. I wish I can stop listening to this VERY soon.

url for the song fyi: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEDJ8ipnRy8 

Objective of this blog

My bf dumped me one month ago but I still cant really accept this yet, I m still trying out everything I can do to "rescue" our relationship, I m still trying to see him in Sep at the Burning Man event......I cant sleep most of the nights ( e.g. 5 days out of a week)...I can only fall to sleep at dawn like 6am when sun rises.....

I know this is a HUGE problem & I ve been reading online how to get over my ex"... learnt that 1st thing to do is to make myself 100% accept the fact that " My bf has dumped me and that's so OVER.", so I decided NOT to go to Burning Man this year already, I would only let him know this decision if he checks with me later in July or Aug. 

Another thing I can do is to try to express my bad feeling as much as I can, so I set up this blog, to say whatever I wanna say to make myself happier, to record my "get over Bruce" progress.

Bruce is actually not his real name but a name that I always call him, he liked me to call him Bruce.